I’m Stucked
A short story about myself
Unlike every other ladies, Anuoluwapo isn’t or she thinks she’s not up to the standards of the so called happening babes — — those set of ladies with an iphone15 promax, an ipad, a macbook pro, those set of ladies who wears eyeglasses, has customized water bottles---- I mean the babes who’s appearance says they have everything figured out already.
My name is Anuoluwapo,
The lady with vast knowledge and skills, super talented and always ready learn new things.
Anuoluwapo is just 25 years young but looks like she is in her early 20s while most people even thinks she is the oldest woman alive. Well, I care not about all of that.
She’s just got the privilege to be enrolled into higher institution to learn what seems to be her dream major__Computer Science.
Anuoluwapo has some many wild dreams one of which is to become the greatest frontend developer alive but that soon changed due to lack of learning resources like a laptop and the funds to enroll into a boot camp. Dreams like, very soon, I will buy my mama a house, take care of her and also get married to the richest man alive.
What’s happened to that dream? Cause it’s been years since all of these has been a dream but look at how much indefinite everything is .
Well, as every other person who planned to achieve a lot but failed to due to unforseen circumstances, Anu began to have a change of DREAMS. Ever heard that? Okay you hearing it now. Anu began to see herself as not even and unworthy of all of those dreams.
She decided to start a youtube channel but despite knowing a lot of meaningful things and life changing topics, the thought of not being enough and qualified killed the willpower to let out her voice. Anu would spend hours in her room to film herself talking only to end up not uploading them or whenever she gathered the courage to upload any video, trust me when I say she goes back few days after to delete them all because it isn’t giving Perfectness.
This habit of self doubt soon become an habit that manifests itself consciously and subconsciously.
At the age of 25 years, Anuoluwapo is stucked in between having to give it all up completely or strive a lot more harder to make things happen for herself. Everyone around her seems to be get ahead on everything and also making big moves.
I’m Stucked, she always says….. how am I not luck like the other girls around? Life is rally unfair.
Finally, Anu decided to live her life the way it pleases her…. Trust me when I say it’s in the most purest form because she never saw herself doing what most of the other girls to earn a living. So she prefers to just live and let things fall in place probably that could be what she should have done in the past years.
Anu just want to read meaningful books, listen to her favourite tracks, eat healthy, spend the little she has, build her faith, write books on whatever topics that comes to her mind, go for school lectures, read her bible, change her look and many more minimal self development stuffs.
Here’s a quick question for you.
Have you find yourself in this kind of state and how were you able to sail through?
Love ♥️
Peace 🤞
Light ✨
